Arrogant Joy

You stare you snarl at me
I look I laugh at you
Never want you to be
Anything in me through

Get lost you dirty fiend
Shut up you stupid fool
Never will you glean
Or in me will you rule

With joyous joy and hope
Your taunts I shall revel
And strangle your throat
You dirty stupid devil

- etc

Wonder

As the Sun rises from the gloomy dark
As morning begins to show its love
Beauty and awe leave their mark
And wonder rains from all above

From the savage coast to the quiet shore
From thunderous storms to bright blue skies
Nothing but beauty will be assured
And a feeling that wonders can only rise

The night has come and the sun shall set
Infinite stars will surround our view
As the beauty we will never forget
And the wonder shall be always true.

- etc

Fall

I tremble, cry at all this pain
Tumbling down like Winter rain
To fight to fall from all the hurt
Grow weary and ridden in the dirt

- etc

Tear

The stream is dry
And the waters gone
But please give me one more tear
So I can cry it for you

-etc

Between

It’s been a while
Between times
Between friends
Between us

- etc

Parallel

They met at the park garden
On a crisp winter's day
It was love at first sight
And she knew it well

They met at a park garden
On a freezing winter's day
It was love at first sight
But doubt was in her mind

They danced and courted all year long
With laughter, warmth and love
She knew there was no other
And held on him tight

They danced and courted all year long
With laughter, whispers and secrets
But she wondered for more
And eventually let him go

They travelled the world together
Experiencing all sights and wonders
She met all kinds of new people
But none quite like him

She travelled the world alone
Watching all the sights and wonders
She met all kinds of new people
But none quite like him

Happiness abound around them
Experiencing life together
There was no greater joy
No greater love

Despair was all around her
Trudging through life alone
There was no greater sorrow
No greater mistake

Years have now gone by
Yet there is still love in her eyes
And peace in her heart
Together and forever, always

The years have now passed by me
Leaving nothing but sadness in my eyes
And regret in my heart
Alone and forever, always.

- etc

The Last Sunset

Never forgotten but never noticed
From the dawn of time and dawns beyond
The Sun rises one very last time
Wearily making its way to the throne sky

Who could have known
Who could have imagined
That today would be the last day
The last day for all to see

As the Sun falls from the sky
The darkness creeps in
Taken for granted one final time
The gift of sight through the wonders of light

The last sunset is here!
It orange light struggling to reach
As it hazily disappears behind the backdrop
And with it all warmth and hope

-etc

Unanswered

I died in your arms tonight
My heart dieing from the pain
But you were not holding onto me

I breathed by last whispering to you
Telling you of my great love
But you were never listening to me

I had you as my last and only thought
Dreaming of dreams spent with you
Yet you never remembered me at all

- etc

Trilogy of Hope (III)

So sorry for the past I created
For being blind and deaf to your ways
I did not hear your calling
Nor did I see your warnings

I was lost in a world far from you
Drifting further into outer space
You called out to me
Yet all I heard were echoes of silence

Detached from everything
I did not realise anything
But now I see where I am
A place of darkness and cold

Please accept me once more
Let me return to a place where I can hear your voice
Where I can see your glory
A place I’ve always longed to be

I want to be with you
Never let me go
I want to hear from you
Never stop your calling

The past will be but a contrast to the future
I’ll never return to my way
I am with you
For now and forever more

Amen.

Trilogy of Hope (II)

Found myself in space far from the world
Not a sound can heard in the blankness of space
I hear no answer to my waiting question
In space there is only the echo of silence

How I long to be near you
To feel you touch
To hear your love
Draw me from this space

Bring me to a place where I can talk to you
Where I can hear your voice
Let there be no ambient noise
Just you pure clear voice

You can hear me
Yet I cannot hear you
You can see my distress
Yet I cannot feel your response

How I long to hear from you
How I long for an answer
I know you will respond
I know I will hear you voice

My ears are expecting
Waiting to hear you answer
Let your reply be of comfort and love
For you are a loving God, one that blesses me abundantly

Amen.

Trilogy of Hope (I)

Confused, lost, detached? What am I to do?
There is no looking back to the past
And the future is darkened by silence
Where do I go and what should I do?

Caught up in thoughts
Strangled by reason
I do not know what to do anymore
My life is slipping through my hands

Teared up on the inside
Smiling on the outside
Will there be an answer?
As I expect and wait, and wait

Saddened by desires
Clouded in limbo
Life walking though the quicksand
Sinking, drowning, dieing in sorrow

Tears flow down
With no apparent comfort to wipe them
No air in a sear of tears
Gasping for breath in a wash of sorrow

Please take my hand and lift me out
Save me from my thoughts
Free me from my pain
Rescue me from myself

Let there be an answer through this all
While the road is filled with pain
Let the destination give me happiness
May and trust and faith fuel me towards the goal

Amen.

What a beautiful day

What a beautiful day it is today
A reason to smile and dance and play
A day to lay and wonder at the sky
To let the breeze drift and pass you by

What a beautiful day it is today
To fall in love across the bay
By you cupid my heart was shot
With you to unite and tie the knot

What a beautiful day it is today
By your side each and everyday
Our life of happiness, joy and tears
To hold onto you amidst all my fears

What a beautiful day it is today
A day to cry weep in dismay
To see your life go pass me by
In the ground there you lie

What a beautiful day it is today
One to remember all the things you had to say
To capture all my memories of you
And sense you love and hold it true

What a beautiful day it is today
All alone under the moonlit ray

- etc

The seed

Oh How I desired to grow on good ground
Then the thorns would not strangle me
How I wished the thorns would not strangle me
Then I could sprout a little higher
How I hopeded to sprout a little higher
Then I could feel the Son's warming love.

- etc

Dreams

Dreaming about you and me,
waking up and knowing it'll never be.
You are always in my dreams,
I don't know why or what it means.
My dreams are filled with thoughts of you,
Us together, someday two.

- C.G.

Epilogue

I look forward to the day my prayers will be answered
A day when my sadness is turned to delight
Where happiness will return to my life once again
A reason to finally smile

Only you can break this drought of depression
Lord you have the power to turn my tears
And make them into an oasis of life
Only you can bring life to this weeping desert

I know you are a God of love and life
You see no joy in watching me suffer
And feeling my heartache, my lifelessness
Every tear that streams down is counted by you

Feel my pain and hear my cry!
I know you can do all things
That you are a God that answers prayers
A God that loves to give me joy

And because of that I sit here waiting
Waiting for the day you answer me
I know that is coming
I can hear, feel it, expect it

My days in the desert are numbered
The storm will not last long
Because you will give me your love and joy
And break down my sadness after all these years

I thank you Lord for what you are about to do
I praise you for the happiness that is about to fall on me
For the dreams that will turn into reality
Thank you O Lord, thank you with all my heart.

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Prologue

There is a feeling deep inside of me
That I cannot ignore or leave
One of sadness and despair
That eats at my heart

Tears well up from my eyes
As a black hole forms inside of me
Sucking all hope and happiness
Leaving only a depressing emptiness

I can feel life flowing out of me
Bleeding away from the cut in my heart
My attachment to life is broken
A meaningless overwhelms me

There is too much pain for me to bear
I could die and feel no sorrow
No remorse for leaving this world
For this pain has ended my life

My life is a rainy day
Tears shower down every hour
Only stopping when there is no more
Sadness is but a constant drizzle

Please God make this rain go away!
Give my life some sun
And remove the death inside of me
Heal my hear O Lord, let the bleeding stop

I pray for happiness in my life
With this sadness weighing me down, I cannot continue
Answer my cry O God and give life to the dead
My only hope is you, with it balances life and death.

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Silent Journey

A dark, dim night.
Lights?
Light reflectors… on the ground.
A curved road. Reflectors lighting the path. Trees line either side.
In a car. A quiet car travelling on the road.
No view of the road after the bend.
Unable to see what lies ahead. Unsure. Uncertain.
Passenger seat. Who’s driving?
A man. Looking at me but not the road.
Talking, chattering, smiling. At me?
Peaceful reminiscence.
Calm. Happiness. Content.
Gliding down the road
The destination is unknown.
But the journey is with You.

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Déclencher

Welcome. Hope you enjoy the read.